Weird faces 😝. Time for work 👟
Sometimes my mind brings me back to you. But only to wonder how you thought I would think once I found out everything you did to me behind my back. I was with you for 3 years and for those three years I pushed all of my gut feelings to the back of my head and told myself to trust you because that’s what you do when you love someone. Or so I thought. How someone could be so cold, so cruel. I;ll never forget the look in your eyes when you couldn’t even apologize to me or realize what you had just done after you had beaten me. The tears streaming down my face, just begging you. Nothing.
Having people come into your job a year later telling you all the horrible things you did behind my back. All the people you slept with. The other one you were in a relationship and you told you were in love with. I had given you my all. I had done everything for you. I just wonder how you feel, or how you would feel knowing I know all of this. Yes, I left you, but I needed to. You were toxic and you couldn’t respect the things I wanted out of life. But on the phone, our very last conversation you had said to me that you couldn’t tell how much you ever loved me because you had to go off loving someone else first. Everyone told me how badly you treated me, and I never saw it. I always looked past it when I shouldn’t have.I don’t want to speak to you, I can see you are still the same toxic person as you were when I was with you. But I hope for her sake that you don’t do to her what you did to me. I hope you don’t use her as your punching bag. I hope you don’t watch the tears stream down her face begging to hear how you feel about her staring into your empty eyes. I hope to god you don’t mess around with other girls and then come home to her. I hope you become a man and become better than that for her sake.
Not that you are even reading this, but I am finally at a place in my life where I am happy.I’ve grown as a woman from everything you put me through, physically and mentally. I’ve fallen in and out of love to find a new beginning and a new love. I went through a horrible period that I didn’t see myself getting out of. But I overcame it all. I’ve proved myself at work, a thing none of you thought was possible and I’m still climbing up there. I’ve found a genuine pure love now, where I’m being treated how I should be . I fought it or a while, I tried to run, we both did. But I let go and allowed myself to feel again and it was the best decision I could have ever made. I now have my partner in crime. My light at the end of the tunnel. My world.
I wish you the best and hope you’ve learned from your mistakes. I honestly do.
I doubt you will see this.
More layers drying
Luis Della-Rocca. Ed. CPE-PIC, cover by Jihel (Jacques Leclerc), 1956. (source : ebay + edit)